Tuesday, February 18, 2020

What does your NaMoPaiMo 2020 Horse Mean to You?

So many of us have a REASON behind the model we paint - not just joining in the NaMoPaiMo experience of bettering our painting skills and seeing what others have or are doing, but because the model itself sometimes means something to us in specific - What does your NaMoPaiMo model mean to you? Mine is a reflection of myself - the pretty side that I show the world and the ugly side that I try to hide.

You'll see once she's completed - what about yours?

I will do a special blog about my NaMo Horse once she's done. 

I posted that to the NaMoPaiMo group on February 13 and here are some of the 68  responses I received:

  • Molly Pengra: Mine is for recovery after an accident. And I didn't just want a simple color I want to do an appaloosa as a challenge...I still cannot fully close my right hand into a fist. So holding a brush not only produces soreness, but is challenging me with the pattern. I just want to heal and be better.

  • Sara Bowman: My horse means me trying to paint more horses for myself. I don't consider myself much of a painter, I'm a tackmaker by trade. It feels good to be making my next performance horse. I will be able to put him in the ring knowing I painted him AND made his tack. Plus painting him has been a good outlet for my depression and anxiety.

  • Katrina James: My collection originally started with a Oxidol I painted (2008) to look like my favorite mare who passed away in 2004... By 2012 I was hooked (showing, etc) And my collection grew. This year, I purchased a resin (Hot Chic 2.0) to 'replace' the Oxidol I had been using. :) I'm hoping my skills have increased enough over the years to do her justice!

  • Sarah Brabbin: It’s part of a journey that’s helping me come to peace

  • Basia Krocz: My NaMoPaiMo horse is just a portrait of the gelding that helped me overcome fear of riding, he’s so quiet and gentle

  • Jennifer O'Donnell Danza: My yearly NaMo horse is always just for me because I seem to forget to do things for myself, including painting my own blank herd. In the past year however, I have found myself diving nose deep into much needed healing from my divorce (which happened in 2009...it takes a long time to heal.) I lost A LOT of who I was during my marriage and dedicating a room just for my illustration and my model horses has been extremely therapeutic and healing for me. I forgot how much I loved being in a room with my little stable, the horses all lined up and all my pedigree papers strewn about the floor like a little girl pretending to create a new horses in my stables. This year's NaMo is a great great granddaughter of my one main stud I played with endlessly as a child. I feel a connection to the person I lost through this piece. Ive even combined an old body (Halla) with a new head (Voyuer) in a symbolic gesture of bringing the old me together with the new me. So this year's NaMo horse is very special to me personally. She is my healing piece of art.

  • Grant Gregory: Mine is to kind of help me through a transition. For all of my working life, I’ve always worked with animals. I worked at vet clinics, I worked at a local park that had Clydesdale horses and a petting zoo, and I worked at a place that is a natural history museum taking care of the animals in that collection for over 20 years. I just left that job for many reasons, not the animals, not my co-workers, but too many restructuring changes that I was tired of coping with over the past few years. That and my feet and knees and other body parts worn out, as well as some of my mental strength for coping with just too much (a bit of compassion fatigue). I’m still struggling with whether or not I’ve chosen correctly, but I’ve made a decision and need to stick to it. I’ve always had an artistic talent that I’ve not really paid that much attention to or that I pushed aside for other responsibilities. I’m hoping to see if I can just do it, and work on developing the little talent I have. I’m not super confident when I see what other artists do, and I often feel like it’s a common gift that almost everyone has in one way or another. I often feel I’m not that special as far as that goes. I’ve been told I do well, but I guess the experts say you’re your own worst critic. Yet I look at others work and I say I can’t do that as well as they can. So I want to try to at least do something artistic. I know a lot of it is just doing it, and learning new skills, and practice, practice, practice. I’ve got free time now to do it, but I’m facing hurdles as getting motivated and accepting my changes at life, from being on the go, physically and mentally exhausted, but yet also having trouble to adjusting to this new way of life. Maybe it will get better when it’s not so dreary and wintery.Oh my, I’ve written a book, haven’t I? Anyhow, I just want to see if I can do it, learn from other artists, and just be. Guess it’s time to go work on my pony now ๐Ÿ™‚

  • Jordan Leigh Sickrey: I’m bisexual & love the unicorns and decorators, so I decided to make a pride unicorn. It’s also just an A+ color scheme. His name is Ralvez, which is the name of a ship in Criminal Minds that I enjoy even though CBS will never give us any of the main characters in an LGBT+ relationship.

  • Jennifer Bray Buxton: Ha! This turned into an entire blog post. My model is a tribute to a horse I admired very much. https://braymere.blogspot.com/2020/02/awesome-tribute.html

  • Karen J. Lloyd: For me, my horse (Django in black leopard Appaloosa) will be a tribute of sorts to my black & white spotted bunny girl Solstice. She was always my artistic muse, not only featuring in several of my canvas paintings and (an unfinished) colored pencil drawing, but also my constant companion while I did my art. My bunnies predominately live in our living room, but she would always brave the linoleum, and hop into the kitchen to visit and hang out with me. She had an unusual warrior spirit her entire life that I knew her (over 8 years) and that remained when she had cancer. Even with a huge tumor on her side, she STILL hung out with me during last year’s NaMoPaiMo. I struggle with a lot of health issues and seeing her attitude gave me a lot of encouragement while I painted Kilimanjaro. I’ve often pictured her as a medieval princess (and have joked she was a little Napoleon lol) so although Django is a stallion, and she was a girl, the mold just felt right and I don’t think she would mind. She passed away about a month after NaMoPaiMo last year and I miss her terribly. ๐Ÿ’œ๐Ÿฐ

There were many more but these touched me and it would take several blogs to post them all. 

Sunday, February 9, 2020

NaMoPaiMo Minis Painting Minis

This fun side event of NaMoPaiMo is where our action figures paint their own NaMoPaiMo horses. 

Started by Lynne Penner and approved by Jennifer Buxton, this event goes along with NaMo. 

Hello all from DJ and Johnny (and some of their friends)!
After speaking to the lovely Jennifer Bray Buxton , it has been decided that #TeamMinisPaintingMinis can officially be a division of National Model Horse Painting Month, which leaves me absolutely stunned. But my two WWE “mega celebrities”, as they call themselves (humble, much?) say they aren’t surprised at all. It was only just a matter of time, they say. Sure…
In any case, if you would like to sign up for Team Minis Painting Minis, please fill out the google survey below, providing me with the name of your action figure (they’re not toys!! Lol), your name, your address, and what idea your action figure has for their painting project(s). The deadline for registrations is next Wednesday, February 5th.
Address is not mandatory, but it is my intention to send everyone who finishes their project a little token of accomplishment. And the absolutely amazing Maggie Jenner-Bennett is also going to be donating some prizes fit for an action figure’s stature! These will be given out at random to those who complete their projects, much the same as NaMoPaiMo. 
I am absolutely humbled by how many people also seem to love their actions figures. I was just having some silly fun with a couple of mine, and now I’m so stoked for next month for TWO projects instead of one!
Also, totally expect a selfie collage for them as well! 

I signed up BB8 and then of course Jareth the Goblin King wanted to join in too. 

February 1 started the day - Jareth and BB8 were busy. 


Jareth was able to get his model prepped and a layer started. Don't ask me how he paints with a crystal and not a brush! 

BB8 had a cheering section from R2-D2 and D-0. His model is prepped and a layer of white starry acrylic added. 

BB8 has been working hard on his horse while R2-D2 entertained D-0 with Jareth's stolen mask!! 

Jareth has also been very busy on his horse. He hasn't seen that R2 stole the mask yet. 

Jareth finished his horse rather quickly and it turned out very nice. 

BB8 had a cheering section but they tended to do less cheering and more annoying I think. I did notice R2 no longer had Jareth's mask. 

D-0 decided to eat Mod Podge that BB8 was sealing his horse with. 

BB8's horse is completed now and looks very nice. 

This was a fun part of NaMoPaiMo and I am glad I decided to participate with Jareth and BB8 - I hope this happens in 2021 too! 

Sunday, January 12, 2020

Colorado Hobbyist Prepping Party January 11, 2020

The ColoradoHobbyistFB had a Prepping Party Event on January 11, 2020 for NaMoPaiMo

It was held at Regan O'Keefe's home. 

It was a lovely day, both in weather and in getting to hang with model horse people that I don't get to see that often. 

It only took about an hour fifteen with Saturday morning traffic to get their from Estes. We were shown around Regan's collection and then we started working. 

There only ended up being 4 of us, but it was very fun! And we managed to get a few things worked on. 

Wednesday, January 8, 2020

Coffee With A Cop - Estes Park PD January 7, 2020

The Estes Park Police Department and Starbucks partnered for a night of "Coffee with a Cop" at the coffee giant's Estes Park location. 

There was no set forum, just tables where officers talked to the public in a one on one or group situation. Some of the officers even stepped behind the counter to learn the workings of making patron's favorite drinks. 

It was a fun time and a good community builder. I think everyone enjoyed themselves. 

Sunday, January 5, 2020

ADHD & being an artist

As some one who has suffered from ADHD all her life, I find art a chore anymore. I love doing artistic things: playing the piano, playing the flute, playing the guitar, singing, writing, painting, etc. The problem is, for me anyway, the older I get the worse the voices in my head are about what I am doing.

When I was younger, my ADHD made me hyper and unable to really focus well. As I get older, I hyper focus on things and fun has given way to being competitive and having to be better than others and not just myself. It’s to the point now that I no longer find things to be fun anymore.

Model horse artistry started as a hobby for me – collecting models because I loved horses and then getting into showing and painting. In the last 10-15 years I have really no longer found it fun to do them. Mostly because the competition at shows feels like I am drowning while looking at everyone else do better. I have been in model horses – showing and painting – since 1983.

I have found the negative voices inside my head to be far worse now that when I was 21. I would lose at a show and be like “one judge, one day” and just go on my way laughing and having fun.  Now I find myself ripping apart everything and models I just painted being stripped because out of a class of 20 I didn’t place 1-6 and so my work is Sh&t and needs to go. I have thrown more breyers in the trash and stripped more resins of paint than I ever did in the first 20 years of my painting. I can never get them like the references I use or the pictures in my head. 

It’s always easy for people to say that you should only compete against yourself, not worry about what others are doing and look at how your work has changed over the years. I used to be able to do that but now that my ADHD has shifted from hyperactivity to a form of impulsiveness, restlessness and difficulty paying attention that is so much worse than my hyperactivity ever was in my youth; I find I am angrier and having less fun. In the last two years I was diagnosed with RSD; I find that I have petty jealousies against certain things and feelings of disappointment and failure all the time. 

These especially raise their head when I see so many people now doing fantasy horses that I did for years and years and was never really accepted at shows. Now they are a very accepted part of the hobby and every artist does them. I look back at all the ones I have done and were never accepted and see what is winning now and I admit I feel that crushing feeling that everyone just hates me and what I do isn’t worth it. 

I have had years of therapy and working on my feelings and emotions. At times, I have felt like I have made no progress. 

As February approaches, everyone in the hobby is gearing up for NaMoPaiMo (National Model Painting Month) – I am sitting here trying to decide what model to paint. I have competed the last three years and instead of it turning out more fun for me, I find myself saying why bother. I still have my first NaMo horse – I love her and think she is the best of the three. The Second year’s NaMo horse met the trash can and 2019’s horse was recently stripped because while I liked him in the beginning, in October I decided he was crap and stripped the paint off. 

It’s not only with my art that I feel this, but with my music and writing as well. I have been working on songs and a novel for years that I can bear to share in the light of day with anyone, yet in my youth I won a Young Kansas Writing contest and had it published in a model hobby magazine. 

I read a post recently by a well-known hobby artist about NaMo and why bother. Her words were moving, and I have seen and said all those things to myself. 

My problem? I don’t remember what is fun anymore. What made me happy in painting, in music, in writing? 

The things I want to make would scare other people and so I don’t let them see the light of day. Maybe my problem is I am not being true to myself. Luke Skywalker asked Rey in The Rise of Skywalker, “What are you afraid of?”

She replied “myself” and I was literally bawling in the theatre. 

So, my NaMo project for 2020 – is a horse with two sides of me – one is the pretty side I try to show to the world, the other is the beast that lives in my mind; the thing I see in the mirror everyday that whispers all those horrible things to me. 

Maybe by making her into something tangible I can get her out of my head and enjoy art again. 

Tuesday, December 31, 2019

Bury your poverty, Dig up your wealth 2020

Okay folks! It's New Year's Eve tomorrow!! And I stole this from my friend Chris Wallbruch years ago. I tried it in 2013 and it was an OK year - I tried it again in 2014 and while it was a rough year - this DID work for me. I did this in 2015 and while the end of the year was not what I expected - it was a very good year. 2016 was just a bitch and while I had no great windfall I have always had the funds to pay what needed to be paid. 2017 I managed to get a little more than I needed, but again no windfall. 2018 I have had a very good year - no windfall- but all the bills paid and I actually have $10 in my savings account (This is saying something considering I have had a $0 balance for a while). 2019 brought a lot of change in aspects of my life and while again no windfall, I have managed to pay my bills (a little late sometimes) but again I have money in savings and a money market now!

It is time to bury your money!

For those of you who are unfamiliar with this tradition, what you do is bury a dollar (or any amount above a dollar that you want) in the soil on New Year's Eve. This can be in a houseplant if the ground is frozen or inaccessible, but I like to go outside, dig a hole, and drop my dollar in. (I put it in a plastic bag). As you bury said dollar, say out loud, "I am burying my poverty!" TIP - if you do this outside, make sure you place some sort of marker where you bury your buck so that you can find it again!

On New Year's Day, dig UP the dollar, and as you do so, say out loud, "I am unburying my wealth!"

You can't spend the money- you can either keep it or give it away to charity. Giving it away is the best so you are less likely to spend it.

This tradition is supposed to give you an unexpected windfall of money during the year.

I have had money come to me the 6 years I have done this - while not what I would call a windfall it helped me out of tough times so I am NOT complaining.

It is a tradition I plan on keeping every year and I thank Chris for pointing me to it!!

Dig up your wealth! 

Tuesday, September 24, 2019

Remembering Why I Live in Estes Park

So, Monday September 16, is one of those days why I remember I live where I do.

After abusy weekend at the Jennifer Show, Meghan Namaste and I drove up to Estes so she could see another National Park that she hadn't seen.

Working nights in an ER and doing Police Auxiliary and everything else I try to cram into a 24-hour day, I sometimes forget the main reason I live here. While I love my work and where I work,  it's WHERE I LIVE that I really love. Seeing it through someone else's eyes always reminds me to actually stop and look at the mountains and the trees and everything that is truly around me.

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2019 has been a rough year for me and I haven't hiked or been horseback riding. I have really just been working and sleeping and I needed this reminder that there are other things besides that.